i love the way you lie

On the first page of our story 
the future seemed so bright 
then this thing turned out so evil 
I don't know why I'm still surprised 
even angels have their wicked schemes 
and you take that to new extremes 
but you'll always be my hero 
even though you've lost your mind 

Now there's gravel in our voices 
glass is shattered from the fight 
in this tug of war, you'll always win 
even when I'm right 
'cause you feed me fables from your hand 
with violent words and empty threats 
and it's sick that all these battles 
are what keeps me satisfied 

I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave 
til the walls are goin' up 
in smoke with all our memories 
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face 
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction 
hush baby, speak softly, tell me you're awfully sorry 
that you pushed me into the coffee table last night 
so I can push you off me 
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me 
run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy 
baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me 
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me 
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the 
destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we 
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs 
that we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky 
together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills, 
you hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'? 
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count 
but together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain 
our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counselin' 
this house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand 
square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it 
with you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it 

hey...

any minute im not with you
i hope i'll see you soon
there's just something that happens
when you walk into the room

and instantly i feel so complete
it hits me right about the time you kiss my cheek
and you give me this feeling
it's like no other feeling
but it knocks me off my feet

please don't ask me what i like about you
cause it's every little thing you do
and that's just the way you make me feel

and i don't think
that there are any others out there like you
and i wont blink cause that would mean
i'd miss a second beside you

and maybe you know what i mean
or maybe this is just a dream
i pinch myself just to make sure
but i'm still here and there you are
i wonder why we just met now
it just kind of happened somehow
but here we are together and
that's all that matters in the end

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together?  I guess that wouldn't work.  Someone would leave.  Someone always leaves.  Then we would have to say good-bye.  I hate good-byes.  I know what I need.  I need more hellos.  ~Charles M. Schulz

half alive

It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,

To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools. 

Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along. 

behind those poems....

hmmm...1st her name is cindy 1st year college...unang kita ko sa kanya intramurals nun.it was sept..brrkada ko pa nga unang nkakita sa kanya..sabi crush nya dw..pro pinaubaya sakin nung sabi ko magnda din..haha iisang dept. lng kmi pro prang d xa ng.eexist sakin nun..hahaha tpos nalaman q classmate pla xa ng ibang classm8 ko sa ibang subject..den nagbayad ako ng 20 pesos dun sa classm8 ko to get her number..haha den dat nyt..i called her..un..unang beses ko narinig boses nya at tumibok puso.. hahaha.. just kidding...

then after dat..nalamn ko sa isa ko pang brkda na my boyfriend pla xa.. tpos sabi ko lng sa kanya "aw a" haha..

tpos sabi ko bf plng nmn...tpos un..nkipag.pustahan na xa sakin..just for one week dapat mgng gf ko na xa..tinanggap ko nmn ung pusta..after 1 week i failed..hehehe natalo ako ng isang case na redhorse =)) tpos un na un..nanligaw parin ako :))

November 6, 2007... it was her debut..tpos ininvite nya ko..pumunta nmn ako eventhough andun bf nya...pro aus lng kc sakin xa tumatabi... d rin ako ngtagal nun..umuwi din kagad,.. and she kissed me on the cheek nung pauwi na ko..i ask her..para sa anu un??then she told me..thankyou dw..thankyou for coming..hahaha d na maalis ngiti ko nun..

sa skul palagi ko na xa kasama...hinahatid ko xa after her class..d kmi ngddate nun kc bawal.. hahaha

December 6, 2007...i was in davao for MSITE conference for 2nd year and 3rd year...nagmalling kmi nun mag.classm8s..haha den my nakita ako ring..xa kagad naisip ko nun..den i bought dat ring for her...

December 8... binigay ko ung ring malapit sa sa covered area...sabi nya para san dw 2..sabi ko nmn..ala lng..hehe nahihiya pa ko nun kc daming studyante..kht classm8 ng bf nya andun din..pro wala akong pakialam..haha and kasya nmn ung ring kht d ko lam ring size nya..ganun tlga cgro bsta my nararamdaman kna sa tao..haha

December 13, 2007..3pm nasa library kami..nagsulat ako sa papel ang I LOVE YOU nun..tpos she answered back ng ILOVEYOUTOO..napatawa ako ng malakas kc ngulat ako..cnaway pa ko ng working studnt dun sa library..tinanong ko xa f kami na ba..sagot ba nmn nyah..ayaw mo bah??hahaha..napisigaw ako ulit nun..un nasaway na ulit..haha inaya ko nlng xa bumaba tpos kumain kmi sa canteen..1st date namin na ngng kami..sa canteen pa..hahaha

feb 14.. nalaman ko na nakipagbreak na xa dun sa bf nya..un..free na kmi lumabas labas..
tumagal kmi hanggng march..


1st break up wd her is on march 2009 ..i was in cebu dat tym..i ask her wats wrong..she jst told me..nasasakal na dw xa...hehe...reasons..pro ni let go ko xa..kc ala nmn ako mggwa pa ayaw na...


bumalik na ko ng marbel march 28 ata nun...den ng.usap kmi pgdating na pagdating ko ng marbel..i ask her again anu problema..yun..cnabi nya ulit na pagod na xa...na nasasakal na xa sakin...


to be cont.. bukas nlng ulit... haha

hmm??

I guess when you love someone u'l realize dat it wud never be anout you and how you want your relationship to be. It's about staying intact and finding ways of making things alright when life says they shouldn't be. its called defying all the odds for something they call... " EVERYTHING" ... ryt?? hehe

"I love you so much but you said we're better off as friends. I cried but it didn't help much coz' you love someone new and because of him, you forgot that you once said you love me too."..

KABAKLAAN..! Penge naman ako nyan by CSIT 4th yr Two! OH! Ten! feat. barkada burger

perfect world

In a perfect world, when shes with him, i would be wishing she was with me. when she look at him, she would be looking at me. when she smiled at him, her smile would be for me, when she thought about of someone, she would thinking about me. In a perfect world, she would realize that she wasnt the one he was supposed to be with and i would be standing here waiting for her still when she finally knows this. But this isn’t the perfect world and people do get hurt, you smile when you feel like crying, you act like your okay when your falling apart inside and you let it go. you move on, because theres nothing else you can do... in a perfect world... hehehe

                                                                                                                      jed

regrets?para sau daw..hehe

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. 

the last words

if time ever told me that i could only have one last thing to say to you, one final plea to try and make you understand how it is i feel, it wouldnt be ‘i love you’. it wouldnt be that this was all pre-destined. and it wouldnt be that one day you’ll regret this decision. although it would be heart wrenching, i would look into your eyes and say that to love is to find freedom in its truest sense. and i would only hope one day you are able to let yourself be enveloped by the full intensity of that emotion. those would be my final words of goodbye to you. it is only then that hope will have finally faded away and courage would help me go on. but always remember a part of me will say: soul wants you, heart needs you, for you i am willing to try ‘everything’, ‘anything’ just for ‘you’.

Saw you walk into the room

Thought I'd try to talk to you

Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to

It's been two years to the day

Half the time I've been away

I know I'm not there enough but that's gonna change

'cause I'm coming back

To show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

we've had our ups and down

But we've always worked them out

Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now

Still I'm lying here tonight

Wishing I was by your side

'cause when I'm not there enough

Nothing feels right

So I'm coming back to show you that

I'll love you the rest of my life

exchanging smiles

****

I woke up this morning

Lying in your arms

Staring at your Lovely face

I wont hesitate to smile

For its worth while...

****

You woke up this morning

And I'm still lying in your arms

Noticed me, staring at you

don't hesitate to smile.

for its worthwhile..

****

I wanted us to get up

But you stopped me

and said, "for a while"

We stared at each other..

Exchanging Smiles...

There You Are Lyrics - IYAZ

kismet

Didn't mean to take you for granted

Didn't mean to show I don't care

Didn't mean to throw away this once in a lifetime of chance

Being with you

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

Pride no longer has room in me

On bended knees in public I cry

Your name for everyone to know that I love you, I love you

Please hear me now

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance(dance, dance)

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything....(my everything)..ooohh...

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

Low Shoulder- Through The Trees (Lyrics)

mistake???

Loving you might be

a coincident?

Loving you brought

so much happiness

Loving you becomes

a day fulfilled

***

Seeing you smiling

makes my heart rejoicing

Seeing your laughter

being bound by happiness

Oh! I love to see it

when you're beside me

***

My ****, who become my life...

Knowing you isn't really a mistake...

Because having you was the time

I was also blessed to be a part

of your life...

----ONLYFORYOU----

jed